Today, I am singing the Christmas blues

Leaving everything and everyone you know is not easy. It takes courage and true grit. Sometimes, you feel like the earth beneath you is shifting and you are trying to navigate shifting sand. But in Jamaica, we have a saying.

“If yuh waan gud yuh nose afi run.”

Translated: “If you want good, your nose have to run. ”

This simply means to achieve better in life, you must be willing to sacrifice.

Surviving and Rebuilding My Life After Migrating

During this migration process, I had to be willing to lose everything I owned. Then, I had to humble myself. Then, I had to trust God to supply ALL my needs – food, clothing, shelter, love. Then, I had to brave the hard times. Go without the creature comforts and depend on the manifestation of the Holy Spirit – Spirit of God – to love and provide for me through others.

And finally, I have to just turn my hands up to receive.

When you leave everything behind, after working for 20 plus years, it does a number on you psychologically. However, in order to survive the process, you have to come to grips really quickly.

Living in America affords you the opportunity to attain what you need much quicker and easier than in Jamaica. Plus, with God’s favor, I have been able to achieve far more than I did before.

So, even though the winter season is rough, long and lonely, I will press on.

Even though, I can’t have Christmas cake, ackee and saltfish, with boiled dumplings and green banana. Even though. I miss my mother’s cooking. Even though, I thoroughly miss my garden. Even though, cabin fever is setting in – I will endure to the end.

As we say, “If yuh waan gud yuh nose afi run.” And as its winter, that meaning is literal.

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About the writer:
Poetess Denise N. Fyffe is a published author of over 30 books, for more than six years and enjoys volunteering as a Counselor. She is a freelance writer for online publications such as Revealing the Christian Life, Jamaica Rose, Entertainment Trail, My Trending Stories among others.

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